I was alone when you left
Unable even to stand at your grave bereft
For you’d had the temerity to go to Eden
So I looked to the rest
With my search for a father simply taking me further and farther into the abyss
Was life really meant to be like this ?
Met girls in my lust to be loved
Hoping dearly to be held with tender gloves
Seeing what I thought to be doves
And starting the string of failed loves.
Circling the sky were crows
Following closely as I crowed,
on and on about my stories
Living in the past as life was sad
But honestly I missed my dad.
My life’s been filled with missteps
I wont say bad
but in my desire to run before I could walk I’ve certainly skipped steps
Driven by the imagination that illuminates my existence
Thoughts dragged my mind to joining you at heavens gate
despite the reticence.
Living felt like no choice
Saved by those that held on to me so close
It was life that the brightness in me chose
So filled with energy I awoke
Raised by the prevailing winds
Blowing the smoke from the fires.
The day we meet when my day to day is retired
I hope I’m not mired
In my earth days
Hopefully won’t be said the bible says
Pain from the heart
I’ve become the work of art.
I think that’s down to you
I’m part of a chosen few
Filled with talents
Searching for acceptance
Ending up the penitent
My hopes for the future are not faint
My words are my paint
Internet my canvas
As I search for response.
Attention to my friends
from all the world’s ends,
I know I am not alone
but maybe if you’d like to
pick up the phone and dial.
Because sometimes I feel not worth the while
and like that forgotten file in the cellar
I feel in need of the pellar.
Absolve me of sin Father
and lead me to a place to begin.
Who is my father?
By faith one I don’t see.
In life anyone it could be.
Filled with love but no modesty
I’m king of my mind
hoping to find more of my kind.
Keeping faith strong
Fueled by words of song
Overcoming the wraiths
No space for the demons
Because when life gives you melons ?
You don’t ask for aid.